Welcome to my fifth appreciative post about the fictional women I adore. This idea was brought to me by Bookish girl and I’m loving talking about my favorite women in fiction, so again, thank you! You can find more details about my reasons to start this meme on this post.
Anyway, my goal is to bring women – including trans women, of course – to the lights every week. But without waiting more, here’s my choice for this week!
Rose and Connor are the main characters from Kiss the Sky and Fuel the Fire by Krista and Bella Ritchie, and my absolute favorite of the entire series, because they’re awesome that way, okay? I could endlessly ramble about why I love Connor, but today, I’m going to focus on Rose and explain why I relate so much to her.
Two words :
Aw, Rose. Rose Rose Rose Rose ROSE. She’s relatable to me in a way heroines rarely are : I want it all, like her, and I have no fucking problem to express it. I also have a severe condition of resting bitch face (oops). Really, I can’t express how many times she would say/think something and I would wholeheartedly agree with her. You see, my close-ones (especially my boyfriend) often tell me that it’s really hard to reconciliate the person I am in public – especially at work, when I’m interacting with adults (I’m different with kids) – and the facets of my personality I show when I’m with them (sometimes : I’ll get back to that). The thing is, I’ve realized early on that if I wanted to be taken seriously in the all-men meetings I have to attend – and chair – as head of school, I had to refrain from smiling too much because these dudes never make the effort of separating basic amiability and flirt. Is that sad? Fuck yes it is. Do I want to sacrifice my peace all the same? Hell no.
Above all that, though – these books and Rose are special to me because they showed me that it was okay to be who I am. I have ADHD, and I’ve been called an Ice Queen by friends, too. It hurts, but the worst is – I get it. Every time I forget to send a text for a big event – birthdays, kids, you name it. Every time I forget they exist and just disappear because my everyday life is overwhelming. Every time I interrupt them, even though I know I shouldn’t, even though I don’t want to, but I cannot help it. I’ve spent so many years of my life blaming myself for being unable to do what seem so easy for others. Calling a friend just for small talk. Reciprocating invitations. All these rules I feel like I’ve never learned.
Rose doesn’t have ADHD, and she’s not me, per se, but I could see pieces of myself in her, and for that I’m so very grateful. Seeing her interacting with her family, with Connor, their complicity and their games – it was everything.
So bring it on, motherfuckers. Try to hurt me. Because I won’t let you.
You go girl. You show them.
PS. To this day, I still haven’t read the Addicted Series (I knoooow). Just so you know, you can still read this spin-off^^
That’s it for today! Feel free to link your posts about your favorite women leads in the comments, I’ll gladly add them here!